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2010-09-08T08:15:00.001-07:00

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2010-09-08T07:17:00.000-07:00

I guess...
Every life has a purpose.
I really cried my eyes swollen.
I did like shit.
I learnt...
How you should achieve what you want while you are alive.
Be grateful you have what you have now.
Thanks all of you, for helping me understand that.
I realised.
Maybe i should live life positively from now.
Or should I not.
But either way, you're living it, aren't you.
So why not, face it with a smile... instead of a frown?
I know what i have been blogging seems cheem.
But I have come to terms with life and its purpose.
Every year is a start of a new adventure, a new chapter in life,
isn't it?
Living an enriched life and all...
isn't that our mission?
Yes, i know.
We ALL hate life.
Life sux.
But let's face it... together.
It would never change, and that fact is definitely known.
Crap... I'm crying again.
Damn.
Anyways.
Let's live life happily, the same as always ne~~
Laughing, Smiling.
That's what.
I want to tell everyone out there.

Thus,
I officially announce the last post of this blog... before setting up another one.
A message to ALL earthlings :D
Live, laugh, love.
Follow these, you'll love life.
Trust me,
Living is WONDERFUL.

Cheers,
Wan Xin <3

Purpose in Life

2010-09-08T02:45:00.000-07:00

Sometimes... I wonder.
What is the purpose in life.
To chase out dreams, to earn big money, to score well in examinations.
I really don't know.
Then,
I realised.
That purpose is solely for you to find out.
And solely for you to fulfill it.
And only YOU can do it.
To enrich your life.

2010

2010-09-07T21:38:00.000-07:00

Unknowingly...
8 months of 2010 has passed.
Thinking back...
It was kinda fun.
Really.
With everyone and everything.

Last year, December,
The pioneers of the crazily high OM group decided.
"WE SHALL DO OM!"
Btw, the pioneers were Jing Wen, Me, Jessica and Kah Poh.
Bin Hui, Amanda and Ying Ning joined after that.
The whole of December was rather crappy.
We came up with ideas on...
TV and advertisements.
Which was rather CRAPPY.
I still have the recodring of the first even meeting with WDD.

January,
Kah Poh sorta quit and Siao Shuen came in to help.
A big help in fact.
Morale was up, highness was up.
Team GO.
End of January,
URGH. I'm kinda sick of it.
We started slacking, accompanied by WDD's You are so lazies.

Februrary,
That's when all the conflicts came in.
Me and Bin Hui
Everyone and Jing Wen
And me shouting crazily in the carpark.
The cats must have been scared.
Class pandemonium, Siao Shuen fell ill.
OM went on hiatus for 1 week.
No progress, no nothing.
We thought: OM, sure cannot. FAIL.

March,
The testing date postponed and postponed and postponed forever.
Like really, FOREVER.
Finally, one day, it was official.
Nick and Lydia could see,
WE REALLY WANTED TO GO SHANGHAI.
A week after chionging props and everything.
SAYOUNARA SINGAPORE, NAN YANG :D
LSC was next.
Nothing much actually.
Except for the fact i shouted shut up the whole night trail.
YAY.

April,
Block Test Period.
DIE TOGETHER.
In the end.
Woah, really die.

May,
OM misses OM.
Started to get really terribly hooked on anime

June,
HI HOLS!

July,
BT2.
I revised.
And passed :D
EVERY SINGLE SUBJECT.
I AM PROUD.

August,
National Day
Youth Day Funfair
All came together
And for once
I could feel the warmth of 210

September...
Just started.
Although the book is ending.
The start of the 9th chapter.
Means, there's only 4 more chapters left.
What will be in store?
How will the adventure continue?
Like hell i would know.

Sometimes,
Life would have been so awesome if it were a shoujo manga.
Seriously.
You have damn effin hot guys in school, no worries in studying.
Get any guitar you want, parents don't even seem to care a damn.
Your friends are so effin loyal that they would die for you.
But actually.
If you asked me.
I would prefer this world more.
Friends... aren't necessarily loyal right?
They still betray.
If you don't betray, you'll never learn.
that the world is unfair and will never be fair.
Anime... is a world where you can hide in and don't care about a damn.
It's a place that makes you feel you actually belong.
It's something that some of us need.
So... we are not weird or anything, we just need a shelter.

Fairy Tail

2010-09-07T18:54:00.000-07:00

Damn.
Why is every episode of Fairy Tail choked full of touching friendship?
I feel like crying every single episode.
DAMN.

2010-09-07T08:48:00.001-07:00

I was thinking...
How lucky I would have been to be Lucy.
To have her friends, guild and nakama that is.

MUSIC'10

2010-09-07T07:13:00.000-07:00

To MUSIC.
Basically...
This year hasn't been much of a breakthrough for many of the singers.
The few... are...
Awesome rapper Eminem who made a recovery from all those scandals.
Our dear BABY Justin Bieber, with his 'hits', (which i don't really find them hits)
B.o.B whom i never really heard of had hit single, AIRPLANES up for more than 10 weeks at top 10.
KICK ASS Ke$ha, definitely one of the stars this year.
Katy Perry from her previous album, One of the Boys, came up with country-ist (as self proclaimed by AMY) song, California Gurls and Teenage Dream (Pretty nice song)
Claps and three cheers for Usher, Jason Derulo and Train.
Not to mention, Hedley, Bruno Mars, and Travie McCoy.
Probably Jessica Jarell.

Stars from the previous year...
Aren't really making any comebacks.
Taylor Swift came back recently with Mine (topping Billboards at Number 9)
Lady Gaga's new song doesn't really appeal to me much.
I supposed Mariah Carey was pretty popular this year... or was it last year.
Beyonce... not much of a difference.

Now. Jap.
I have nothing much to say really.
Three words: I LOVE YUI!
And i bet everyone agrees.
YUI FIGHT-O!

The most ADAPTED music style this year has to be the Airplanes style.
A enchanting, awesome 'chorus' and rap all the way.
Applies to Love the Way you Lie, Airplanes, Brave Heart, whatsoever.

So...
for music.
Not much of a surprise this year.
But i gotta feelings.
Nxt Year's gonna be a rockin' year :D

Cheers,
Wan Xin <3

ANIME'10

2010-09-07T07:11:00.000-07:00

WOOSH.
I shall post on ANIME'10...
Just to get myself prepared and fired up for AFA'10.
LOL.

Let's start in alphabetical order.
...
Shit.
I forgot what anime starts with A.
Oh yeah.

Awesome ANGEL BEATS
A pretty nice anime I would say.
Nice music and all.
Definitely an awesome plot.
Impactful enough to get most people watching definitely.

B... Baka to Test
Funny anime. Random overload.
But dropped it half way.
Too random for me.

C... Cross Game
Yes, the AWESOME, KICK ASS BASEBALL anime
With a legendary pitcher... or rather pitchers.
Nice plot.

D... Durarara!!
Ok.
I never really concentrated on this anime.
But if based on what i watched so far.
Thumbs Up.

E... Elfen Lied
NEVER WATCHED.

F... Fairy Tail
One of the most most HOT anime this year.
Definitely.
Good mixture of touching, funny, serious scenes.
AYE! AWESOME SERIES.

G... Gakuen Alice
Damn last year.
But don't worry,
Natsume's still as hot.

H... High School of the Dead
Not as scary as expected.
ECCHI. TOO ECCHI.

I... Itazura na Kiss
Hit anime as always.
Taiwan, Korean, Jap renditions. AWESOME.

J...

K... Woah.
This alphabet is making up for J.

Kaichou Wa Maid Sama
USUI is definitely the LURVE for this series.
Love the manga, love the graphics.
Can't help but fangirl over USUI and MISAKI.
BEST SHOUJO THIS YEAR.

Kuroshitsuji.
Nice timeline.
Demon, Butler, doesn't make sense at first.
But it's actually a nice anime and manga.
Sebastian... A BUTLER TO THE CORE.

K-ON!!
OMG.
Back, BIGGER, LONGER, BETTER.
AWESOME music, more mio.
No thank you is the loveeee.
In all,
Yet another hit series.

Kobato
Erm... a rather.
Like...
Dunno how to descibe.
Ah MORAL BOOSTING ANIME.

Kimi ni Todoke
Kazehaya, you're slow.
Overall, nice anime

L... La Corda D'oro.
Ano. Last last year.
But seriously.
Give me an anime that starts with L?

M... Mai Hime

N... NANA
Kinda.... sick.
Hard to NOT fall in love with.
Music and love.
What better combination than this.

O... Ouran High School Host Club
Tamaki stop being so Narci.
Honey stay cute.
Mori love your diao face.
Haruhi, you're awesome.
Kyouya good luck with the money
Twins, love your hairstyle.
One of the manga lookouts this year.

P... Prince of Tennis
WTF.
No sports manga or anime beats this awesome thing.

Q... Suggestions? Anyone?

R... Nothing much too.

S... Many to talk about.

Shugo Chara
Filler year for this anime.
Party was kind of Phail.

Seitokai Yakuindomo
Random all the way.
Punch Line of the anime... The best place to have sex is on the Grand Piano.
WOW.

Skip Beat
I want season 2 NOW.

T... To Aru Kagaku no Railgun
MISAKA love.
One of the highlights in Spring.
Best endings i have ever seen.
I cried.

U... Nothing.

V... Vampire Knight
I can't believe i only fell in love with it now.
I used to be afraid of the manga cuz of the word vampire.
But. AWESOME.

W... WTF.

X...

Y... Yumeiro Pattisiere
Baking with a shy couple.
Fillers here and there, but it's okay :D

Z... Zatch Bell.
thank you, nothing to say.

There.
The end.

2010-09-06T22:56:00.000-07:00

The most touching story in Fairy Tail.
I think.
Is Gray's Past.
When Ul disappeared.
And i cried again.

2010-09-06T07:08:00.000-07:00

OK.
I'm rather PISSED OFF NOW.
Like seriously.
Damn.
í've been doind everything and no one appreciates it.
WTF.
EVERYTHING.
MIND YOU ALL.
EVERYTHING.

2010-09-06T06:20:00.000-07:00

Sheesh...
I'm bored.
And i still have chinese MOCK PAPER TO DO.
YAY.
LOL.
Anyway.
I hope Siao Shuen survives in Msia.
And I hope discussion will work out.
YAY.

TO THE EMO-ING PEOPLE OF 210

2010-09-05T08:26:00.000-07:00

I realised people in our class are getting emo-er and emo-er everyday.
I mean come on.
Cheer up!
It's the September Holidays!
It's not as if I'm not Emo-ing.
But hahas!
Take a break, have a kit kat.
LOL.
Seriously.
I mean.
You guys are not alone right?
Friendships will heal in time!
Spend less time thinking about the ones you are pissed with now.
Then, you'll feel less emo.
Maybe i should get a voodoo doll for everyone at the end of the year,
then.
nxt year if they hate anyone in their class.
They can throw the doll around their room.
And they would be thanking me for that. -.-
CHEER UP PEOPLE!!!!!!
Life is UNFAIR, learn to FACE it.
It will never be fair.
Some will win, some will lose, some were born to sing the blues.
It's NATURAL.
I found out.
Feelings of JEALOUSY, HATRED and EVERYTHING ELSE is NATURAL.
And it would be gone with time.
I'm not jealous or hating anyone now!
Well...
Maybe some.
MAYBE.
So,
YEAH!
CHEER UP!
IT'S OUR FINAL YEAR!
LOVE IT, HATE IT.
You're gonna leave close ones and the ones you hate.
Like always.
210 FTW <3

2010-09-05T08:19:00.000-07:00

WTF.
Shit.
I'm getting all hyped up about the nxt yumeiro pattisiere episode.
henri lucas seemed EVIL.
Well....
ARGH!
KASHINO SMILED WHEN ICHIGO CAME BACK.
ISNT THAT SWEET???

I AM BACK FROM MSIA PPL

2010-09-05T07:49:00.000-07:00

OMG.
Real boring trip to Msia
Went at 2 returned at 10:30.
8 and half hours in Msia
30 minutes in AEON because my mum won't allow me to touch the drums.
And my lovely cousins came
And we played the guitar the whole afternoon
Which wasn't really boring larh.
OMG.
She can sightread damn well.
My cousin that is.
OMG.
I realised my blogposts has OMGs.
My cousin has a blog
And he's only P3.
WTF.

Wan Xin

2010-09-04T20:29:00.001-07:00

Hey.
I just want you to know :D
YOU ARE NOT ALONE :D

Wan Xin <3

September

2010-09-03T21:52:00.000-07:00

The 2011 OM questions are out...
AW MAN.
When I look back in time....
This year's been kinda fun actually.
Beginning of the year,
We had OM.
OM was fun, mentally ruining, but fun.
How ironic.
We started last year November or rather October.
And it was quite disastrous at first.
And we were pretty slackish.
Our script was only done in Februrary.
When pandemonium came, our class kena quarantined.
AND we had to stop.
Then, by the time, we had 1 and half weeks left.
So,
We chionged.
and chionged.
And we made it.
In a weeks' time, we were off to Shanghai.
There, we saw tissue falling into soup, suffered a few setbacks, ate baos, camwhored at dong fang ming shu ta.
After 8 days of joy and tears,
we then announcing out results on stage with a victorious smiles on everyone's face.
How proud i felt that time. I miss OM terribly.

Then, when we returned from OM,
It was life skills camp.
And the very first time i was greeted with everyone's smiling faces.
And screams of joy.
that moment, I'll never forget.
Everyone was screaming.
I felt so happy that time.

Following that,
was the Malacca trip.
The most fun trip of my life.
Chendol, touring around Malacca and almost getting lost.
Eating dinner and laughing.
I hope it will remain that way.

After school reopened,
we got hyper about teachers' day.
And started doing things i never thought i would.
Even though...
in the end we still phail
It was worth the experience

Soon,
Block Test 2 came.
This time.
All of us improved.
Well... maybe not Math.

Now... it's September
Of all the things I still remember
This year,
September never looked the same
The years go by and time seems to fly
But the memories remain
In the middle of September
We realised. there's only 4 more months together
Nothing to lose but nothing to gain
But still... the memories remain

I hope to put a smile on every face that reads this post. So SMILE.

2010-09-03T19:10:00.000-07:00

OMG.
Mischievous Kiss's plot is moving TOO fast!
WTF.
Still think the Taiwanese rendition is the best.
Zhi Shu has more 'COLD' effect.
And obviously has more screen time.
But Xiang Qin is too dork in the Taiwan version, so I personally don't really like it.
In the Korean version,
Seung Jo has little screen time, but too 'COLD', and his 'COLD' id not that cold. I CAN'T FEEL THE SARCASM!
SO I STILL THINK TAIWAN VERSION=DA BEST :D

2010-09-03T05:42:00.000-07:00

OMG.
YESH.
1262 ppl.
I told my dad to buy 4D.
I stalked JAPS.
AWESOME.

Dreams

2010-09-02T08:14:00.000-07:00

To reach your dreams, you'll have to keep fighting
Even if it gets a little dirty along the way

So Much For My Happy Ending

2010-09-02T07:25:00.000-07:00

Sry,
I never knew you were always actually by my side when i needed help
THX :D
I feel accomplished.
OMG.
YEASH!
I completed Drama Script no. 2
With an exciting scene.
HIGHING~~

2010-09-02T03:11:00.000-07:00

Ok. I need to say whatever i need to say in this post,
If not im gonna explode.
I AM JEALOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHAT'S THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN YOU AND ME!
WE'RE ALL _____________ MEMBERS!
WHY DOES EVERYONE SAY THE SAME THING.
DO I NOT ____________ AS WELL AS YOU?!
I'M SORRY. YOU CAN HATE ME ALL YOU WANT, BUT.
I AM JEALOUS.
SO WHAT IF YOU ____________ HIGHER THAN ME.
AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I WANT TO SCREAM OUT LOUD MY FEELINGS.
WHY DOES EVERYONE SAY THE SAME THING.
I'M CRYING.
WHY DO I LOSE ALL THE TIME.
I NEED TO LET ALL THESE FEELINGS GO.
I CAN'T BOTTLE THESE FEELINGS UP ANYMORE.
TELL ME WHY?
NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME.
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Í HAVE BEEN BEARING THIS FOR THE WHOLE TIME.
I CAN'T ANYMORE.
OH, I WANT HER ________________.
OH, I LOVE HER ________________.
OH, SHE ___________ SO WELL!
NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME...
AT ALL.
NO ONE IN THE WORLD.
SHIT.
FUCK.
DAMN.
WHY WON'T THE TEARS SOME OUT ALREADY.
I NEED TO CRY.
I REALLY NEED THEM TO COME OUT.
EVERYDAY IS PURE TORTURE WHEN WE'RE COMPARED.
PLS, STOP IT.
I DON'T WANT TO STAY IN YOUR SHADOWS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-09-02T02:53:00.001-07:00

Woah Sheen Tian.
THX I LOVE YOU :D
My MSG is 1.83 so far. Pls continue to be 1.83 :D
anyways.
I'm JEALOUS OF YOU.
You're my best friend i ever had,
But I'm jealous of you.
I don't know why.
Why everyone keeps saying the same thing.
I'm pissed, jealous.

2010-08-31T22:20:00.000-07:00

You guys are really going to go.
This is kinda nice.
Being with everybody is nice.
Ever since this morning...
It's been kinda cold.
But I guess it's like being with you guys
Makes it feel like its not cold at all.
I hope that after this year,
We'll still laugh together like we always do.
We jostle each other around the whiteboard
Making graffiti of our free wishes
Even if the after school chime echoes in the setting sun
You can’t diss the power to dream
Drawing wildly with a marker in the notebook of my heart
It only has points about how I feel like crying when I get pushed
When I’m with everyone, pain and joy
Stick in me with an infinite reverb
Let’s sing more, more, more, even if our voices grow hoarse
Praise this moment with your lips
Having maps with the same routes, we were able to encounter each other
It’s our bond
NO, Thank You! I don’t need memories
Because I firmly believe “now”
Getting immersed in my memories is a sweet, adult-like luxury
But not yet…I want to hold back from it

2010-08-31T21:20:00.000-07:00

Holy Shit.
I'm ADDCITED to S.A AGAIN!
RYUU~~~~
LOL

2010-08-31T07:02:00.000-07:00

If I fall, stumble down.
Will you pick me up off the ground?

Oh god.
I really miss everyone frm NHPS.
Except for some people.
yeah.
Seriously,
you think that sticking up helps?
stuck up bitch.
forget it.
this friendship will not last long.
yes im referring to you.
Toilet. You suck.
STOP IT.
I can't stand seeing them going further and further apart.
They, to me are quite close friends
so stop pulling them apart
maybe it's just my wild imagination.
but. i feel it.
so...
yeah.
Thanks to you
my probability of getting cancer increased by 20%

To Nat
I know you won't see this...
But. Let me tell you smth.
I'll be there for you kays?
Dun EMO.
Feel free to tell me anything.
I didn't know you could EMO in the FIRST PLACE.
I SEE YOUR POTENTIAL.
You could call me sensei or smth.
LOL.
Anyways.
Wadevs it is.
Cheer up :D
And to EVERYONE OUT THERE
yes,including you reading this post.
If you need someone to talk to.
And think I'm a person worthy to talk to.
SMS me anytime :D
i'll try to help.
It's our last 4 months tgt after all.
ne~~
enjoy it to the fullest.
Oh god i think im gonna cry.
cherish friendships that you should.
hope they will last for life.
so 20 years later down the streets
you'll still recognise each other.
but according to mr lim
you recognise the face not names...
so,
at least say
"I KNOW YOU!"
smth like that.
oh god.
i cant imagine myself going high all of the sudden in the middle of orchard road.
lol.
TO ALL EMO PEOPLE, including me
CHEER UP!

P.S.
Oh God, is it time to prepare farewell presents?
i think i'll do this.
For Amanda, if there is still stock.
i think i'll get you the beast shirt and cd that costs a damn effin $55
For Siao Shuen, i dunno what to give you... fairy tail manga? Print USUI's picture on A5 size paper and forge his signature?
For Nat, I know exactly what to give you :D
A CD.
You request larh.
i dunno which one to buy.
For amy...
panties. no. can we make a lovely french partner shirt?
For li shuo
i'll just give you my... my... r and j book
I'll think bout the rest l8r.

Teacher's Day 2010

2010-08-31T04:36:00.001-07:00

OMG.
Trip back to NHPS was fun like shit.
Saw dear briana mummy and nicole, dear P1 bestie and hugged dearly.
god i miss them.
NHC <3
Then, i heard someone call me, TAY WAN XIN!!!!
turn around.
omg.
Teh Mun Yee.
:D
Practically all teachers' forgot my name.
Mrs Kwek insisted i was tan something xuan.
WTF.
I love you MDM LEE AND MR KUM.
YOU GUYS ARE AWESOME.
And i found out Guo Lao Shi (Guo MEi Li)
has effin good memory.
Sandy Tay, Samuel Tan and Lim Teck Huat was damn funneh.
mavis: HI!
*jess, janice, mavis and i wave*
*teacher smiles*
mavis: do you remember us?
teacher: yes! 2008 batch right?
mavis: smiles. then do you remember our names?
*teacher dodges behihnd colleagues*
nan hua has changed so much.
including the shitty principal.
my choir juniors were so friendly.
I MISS YOU JERRY!!!!!!
oh.
Im glad i only saw chan hiu fung.
*phew*
Mdm Lee was epic.
Mdm Lee: You must come back in 2012 ah!
Me: WHat occasion?
Mdm Lee: NH's 95th anniversary.
WTF.
That's 2 years away.
*laugh*
teachers' day @ nan yang
equally fun.
nat chua i hope you get muscle cramps 2day
party was epicly funneh.
LET IT BE.
OMG.
NYC <333333
Sec 4s were omg AWESOME.
i forgot to take them down!
> <
but i got wang DAN DAN
she's so SEXY~~~~
hahas :D
the end

Wan Xin :D
P.S. Ms Sam, stop messing Mavis's and my name up thank you :D

No, Thank You

2010-08-31T01:47:00.000-07:00

No
Tainaka Ritsu
Hirasawa Yui
Akiyama Mio
Nankano Azusa
Kotobuki Tsumugi
You

Let's sing, louder, louder...

2010-08-30T07:48:00.000-07:00

Hi.
I shall post... AGAIN.
Youtube's failing me, so shitty.
anyways.
i shall post a light hearted post.
studies have shown being emo on a daily basis increases the risk of getting...
cancer.
so i shall reduce the probability by 50%
yay.
anyways.
tomorrow is...
today is teachers' day is time to shout HURRAY.
the lady gaga song.
i miss that.
and i am i mean, we are finally going back to nhps.
oh beloved nhps.
oh shit. i think i caught the friar lawrence disease.
my mum loves to make me force down the leftover sour strawberries.
eww...
i just stuffed one gigantic one down.
plus mushy blueberries.
she said,
it increases your memory.
which i don't mind.
oh.
to everyone.
i have a fanfic acc.
have fun searching.
yes.
frm wan xin.
on with the post!
yes.
i had my FIRST guitar lesson last sat, and damn my middle finger still hurts.
like you can still feel a dent there.
i think it already started to harden.
...
-.-
omg. bloody usui is bloody H-O-T.
I want to paste a gigantic picture of him on my ceiling and stare at him until i sleep.
nah. jk.
you won't see a gigantic usui.
although i want one.
welll...
i may consider.
you know there's a maid café in singapore?
i wanna go > <
AFA'10
EOY'10
Let's GO TO ALL OF THEM!
Without her.
I don't want ms. wet blanket to come.
end of light hearted post.
which decreased the probability of getting cancer by 50%

Thx light hearted post,
Wan Xin

P.S. this has to be the randomest post EVER.

你不属于的世界

2010-08-30T04:03:00.000-07:00

我终于明白，
不适合你，不属于你的世界，
就不应该踏进去，
躲得越远越好
这样，
我们的生活，
就不会那么痛苦，悲惨。
你问我，
为什么我沉浸于不现实的生活里，
我告诉她说
沉浸在不现实的生活，
总好过在现实的生活里受无数的伤痕吧。
的确，
我不想活了。
活着。。。
有什么意义。
答案：毫无意义
你们没有想过。。。
孤单是多么的可怕

I finally posted

2010-08-29T08:25:00.000-07:00

Yo. People.
I finally posted.
My PRAGUE trip is a goner.
im going to msia instead.
WTF.
my bdae...
im wondering how to celebrate...
i want to spend it with my frens.
but does anyone even want to go out with me?
maybe...
i'll just spend it by myself.
last year's bdae eve was the most memorable...
thx to amanda, kah poh and jing wen.
oh and jing wen, i cant believe you posted
5 chapters 38 reviews.
Quite good for a second story :D
but 31 chapters and 143 reviews is darn pathetic.
yeah~~
why can all of the US people write so well???
urgh.

Nothing I Will Be Afraid

2010-08-25T19:00:00.000-07:00

Fly away　不管流下多少眼淚
堅持下去的動力還在
Nothing I will be afraid

Now,
I know it's impossible to be perfect.
How Great.

BITCH

2010-08-24T22:39:00.000-07:00

BITCH,
fuck off.

Emo Post nuimber 2

2010-08-24T16:04:00.000-07:00

Don't worry,
this isnt about anyone.
I'm just effin pissed off right now.
and i listen to my life would suck without you.
it's a nice song to vent your feelings...
really :D
jordin sparks and kelly clarkson are AWESOME to the boot :)

Emo...
Emo...
Emo...

You know...
210 is gonna be separated at the end of... 3 months.
and i wonder...
are all the friendships are just going to disappear like that...
i wonder if we would still say hi to each other on the corridor like we used to.
im gonna miss everything seriously
these 2 years, have been seriously tough for me.
it's like a 360 degree change from primary school.
suddenly, last year everything changed.
and now, i feel better already.
just cry once or twice at home.
it feels good.
some people say...
my blog posts are damn effin emo.
my choir juniors, classmates...
but i myself don't understand the meaning of all these emo posts.
I just want to tell everyone about my feelings.
and it all turns into emo posts
life is such a battlefield
don't you guys think so?
my dream...
i thought a lot and talked a lot about it.
but do i really want to become a teacher? a doctor?
i seriously don't know.
my dreams are easliy affected by things i do, i watch, i read.
hairstylist, doctor, pattisiere, policewoman,
eveything is influenced.
i don't even know what does the mere existence of me on earth means.
to suffer, to tolerate?
i don't know.
i feel like a piece of trash.
take one step at a time,
there's no need to rush
I want to sing well...
but i can't
i want to play the guitar, piano and drums well, but i can't
I want to do well in my studies
but i can't
I want to have a life
But I can't
is it just my own doing?
or is god playing a trick on me.
i don't know.
argh.
i feel like crying.
let me cry
but im in the classroom.

i saw a post.
and i was touched.
i feel exactly the same.
i think.

im...........
an ordinary girl.
no redeeming features.
no ginormous clever brain.
no luck.
chicken shut up.
no beautiful smile.
no pretty face.
no good personality.
no nothing.
ican i stand up?

i realised...
i have been pleading for the past year on my blog.
but no one answers to them.
so,
i realised...
i have no one to turn to after all.
the friends, i thought i had closer friends.
i realised...
maybe they could do without me
of course they could do without me
i realised...
they would smile without me
i realised...
people don't smile when they are with me...
i realised...
i'm not that important to anyone at all...
I realised...

YOG AND FUNFAIR

2010-08-12T00:30:00.001-07:00

OMG.
Tmr's the funfair.
so fun~~
cant wait.
sheperds pie.
ewww.....
it's potato and chicken.
weird name though :D
yeah~~
oh oh oh oh.
today was fun
and sweaty
but worth it larh.
i hope i can slp when i get home.
had coughing fit today.
i was like cough cough cough every single second
and amy thought my tears were sermon -.-
thx miss lim for your wonderful bio lessons.
and we ran up and down
and finally completed the damn stall.
yesh!!!!!!
lol.
haiz.
kana nishino's voice is to die for.
yui's voice too.
ah~~ brave heart
shinjite.
im being random here.
yeah. i know im lazy to blog
but recently
life's been boring.
oh
except for last fri
too awesome to be true.
i actually went k-boxing
with siao shuen, amanda, nathania, and claire o.O
i acutally went with them :D
and watched despicable me.
i want such another outing.
after EOYs anyone?
well sing for... 5 hours.
ill end up with another round of cough.
yay.
i tried drawing misaka
n siao shuen said it looked like kida.
what????
at least my iwasawa looked liked iwasawa.
^ ^
my drawing skills improved.
yay.

2010-08-12T00:10:00.000-07:00

so what you're always on my mind
don't let it go to your head.
It doesnt mean i can't live without you.
i just realised
im sick of this life im living.
i dont think anyone ever understands me.
one moment she was so close to me, the other she is damn far
one moment, we WERE frens, now, i dont know if you're even there for me.
So what if i memorized every word you said
don't let it go to your head
Yeah.
So what if i really like you.
As a friend.
The fact i die when you're gone...
i feel so effin lonely now.
LONELY.
My heart is like a black hole.
a dead one.
no one can ever enter and so it's empty.
an unradiant star.
a star that will never shine.
turns into a black hole
when everyone talks about it
they shiver
what the hell happy ending.
there's no such thing
so ill not think of a happy ending to the end of my two years
now,
i don't even know if i look good without you.
i know i don't
you were everything i thought would be the perfect friend
all this time i was pretending
so,
so much for my happy ending.
when im fifteen
we're never gonna be in the same class.
but so what
im gonna try to be a rock star
and get away from your shadow.
our frienship is like a battlefield
and so i bleed my heart out on this earth
but this is me.
why cant i make the light shine one me?
im no prince, im no saint
but i can be someone to fall back on
so god grant me some miracles.
i made a wish upon a shooting star
so give me back my happy ending.

there nagi-chan and rena-chan,
your combination of my feelings, songs that have made me cry and terribly touched.
i hope its to your standards :D

2010-08-12T00:06:00.000-07:00

I realize the reason why I’m crying these tears
But I’ll overcome them, right now I’m looking up towards the sky

I can feel those feelings beside you
When we are together, they even become stronger
When I seem to eventually lose myself
Believe yourself, believe

Let me flashback my life
Just like an instant is truly eternal
I showed various expressions and I tried to smile
Most moments my heart is painful and I wanna cry
I was crying inside my eyes
You behaved and were strong enough not to show tears
It is there if it stops once but games over

I feel that there isn’t a second chance anymore
And every day I think about that fear
The ideal I had is far from the heart
Surely everyone in this life comes together
Even if it's painful, I'll endure its trials and become strong

It’s going to take time but
I’ll take the chance to the last
Believe in yourself and just take a little step
Don’t worry you will not be alone anymore

I can feel those feelings beside you
When we are together, they even become stronger
When I seem to eventually lose myself
Believe yourself, believe

I realize the reason why I’m crying these tears
But I’ll overcome them, right now I’m looking up towards the sky

Don’t run away

The rainbow towards tomorrow cannot been seen if you run away
(Don’t let it fall, Let’s go)

The heart feels like it is crushed (sometimes)
Because before your eyes face reality, you run away, (That’s why, That’s why)
It is an impossible thing the way it is now
And though I understand it, I can’t change it (Kana)

But when you're by yourself
Don’t tell a lie
(Hey, let it flow)
You can start walking again

Even when I am harsh, you show courage
(Keep go on and on)
You’re always beside me

I can feel those feelings
When we are together, they even become stronger
When I seem to eventually lose myself
Believe yourself, believe

KEEP ON TRYIN’
TRYIN’
JUST TRY
KEEP ON TRYIN’
TRY TRY
AND TRY not to lose ground by running away, you got to FIGHT BACK
To the top (to the top) from the streets (from the streets)
I’ll Try and Try (I’ll Try and Try) (TRY TRY)
Don’t lose one’s time, you can change and have some life (LIFE)

One life, failure after failure is life but once more we want to laugh at the end
I shine together we’re Fly’in to light
There won’t be a tomorrow without trouble
As for all times, wouldn’t everyone say there are mountains and valleys?
How can there be level roadways if I already stumbled over them once before?

I stand up again and begin to walk
How many times must I crawl even as I run and run after losing my breath?
When I don’t advance, life is a battle
You are your greatest rival

lalala I don’t miss the eyes of life
lalala life…my life

Failure after failure is life but once more
You can start walking

I can feel those feelings beside you
When we are together, they even become stronger
When I seem to eventually lose myself
Believe yourself, believe

I can feel those feelings beside you
When we are together, they even become stronger
When I seem to eventually lose myself
Believe yourself, believe

Don’t run away

The rainbow towards tomorrow cannot be seen if you run away

I think this song
perfectly describes all sorts of relationships.
Friendship, love whatsoever
To you,
now im missing you
i want to talk to you again.
the distance between us jsut gets further and further
i don't know why.
it is just me
or you?
have you gotten bored of me?
i don't know?
or is it what they call a silent relationship
but pls
i think for this last term++
pls, let me see your smile.
again.

Wan Xin

BT2 :D

2010-08-01T23:00:00.001-07:00

Jess, im still waiting for you.
anyways.
geog and chinese... was relatively easy :D
i think...
i hope can get A1. 'i hope.
for chinese :D.
peace.
anyways.
math!!!! lang. arts.
sure die. sure die.
so tired. wanna slp.
omg. yumeiro patissiere and kaichou!!!!!!
butler and henry lucas!
YAY!!!!!!!!!!!
lol.
JYJYS FOR BLOCK TESTS MINNA~

Wan Xin.

OMG. Nathania created facebook. sheen tian FTW

2010-07-27T19:13:00.005-07:00